you are my sunshine

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You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
When I awoke, dear, I was mistaken
And I hung my head and cried

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

I'll always love you and make you happy
If you will only say the same
But if you leave me to love another
You'll regret it all some day

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

A classical old song yet has a wonderful lyric. I've deleted one paragraph of this song cos it suppose to be a happy song wut..hehe. Well, i never like this song before until one of my fren re-sing this song and make his own video clip. The nice thing is, he dedicated this song to his special one. So, i edit the picture above and post it as an entry, oso intended to dedicate this song to my special one happy

~ listening to you are my sunshine ~

nope, its not

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"i hope it will be raining tonite"

Nope. Its not unfortunately. Wait for tomorrow. Because, esok masih ada =)

back to routine

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Back to routine. Ward rounds, clinic, approaching patient, clerking,examining patient, cover beds and presenting cases. Habes sudaa cuti-cuti ku and im so glad to be placed in orange ward. wehuuu~

It has been only 2 days since i left home and these two sweet little girls and im starting to MISS them. so much

Dearest syira and balqis, jangan noti2 okey. i really miss you both. Cepatlah habes 3 minggu nih. please. please.please.

~ listening to khatimah cinta, 6th sense ~

her eyes

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when i look into your eyes
it touched me deep within my heart
i can see so many precious things
lying all the joy we had together

those bright eyes
brilliant light in the dark skies
i sit and stay motionless
in her sweet angel eyes

by jules

~ listening to breathe, taylor swift feat colbie caillat~

hold my hands

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I hear the flower's kinda crying loud
The breeze's sound is sad
Oh no...
Tell me when did we become
So cold and empty inside
Lost a way long time ago
Did we really turn that blind
We don't see that we keep hurting each other no
All we do is just fight

Now we share the same bright sun, the same round moon
Why don't we share the same love
Tell me why not
Life is shorter than most have thought

Hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what we`ve left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let's pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you

Hold my hand....

Children seem like they've lost their smile
On the new blooded playgrounds
Oh no...
How could we ignore
heartbreaking crying sounds
And we're still going on
Like nobody really cares
And we just stopped feeling all the pain because
Like it's a daily basic affair

Now we share the same bright sun, the same round moon
Why don't we share the same love
Tell me why not
Life is shorter than most have thought

Hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what we`ve left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let's pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you

No matter how far I might be
I'm always gonne be your neighbour
There's only one small planet where to be
So I'm always gonna be your neighbour
We cannot hide, we can't deny
That we're always gonna be neighbours
Your neighbour, my neighbour
We're neighbours

So hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what have left behind

So hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what we`ve left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let's pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you

hold my hands - maher zain
sangat x menjemukan pabila mendengar berulang kali =)


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" Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves ... Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point it, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps, then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer "

- Rainer Maria Rilke

All you need in life is patience. Do live and grow in patience as patience plays variety of important role in our lives. I purposely post this entry as a reminder to me and would like to share this to others.

Patience to others is LOVE.

Patience to self is HOPE.

Patience to god is FAITH.

Patience is the art of accepting and moving slowly happy

the utmost is,

Patience, half of faith.

maen air =D

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Have you ever enjoy washing a car in the middle of rainy day?

Well i suppose to tell you tat it is so much fun. Rainy day and water splash lift up their excitement to play around. I can still remember how their laugh sounds like when they chasing each other rounding the car. Its like the best melody and rhythm you ever heard. Whenever you remembered those moments back, you will smile.

~listening to do you remember, jay sean~


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syira : "along ni asik buat gamba orang je..gamba adek tak buat pun.." no talking

me : "sebab adek x comel..kalo adek comel takpela along buat gamba adek selalu"

syira left me without a words. Well, she grew up already. dah pandai merajok rupenyer adek along nih..huhuhu smug

half hour after..

me : "adek..meh tengok ni. chantek x along buat?"

syira : "nape muke adek macam tuh?"

me : "banyak komplen lak die nieh. komen muke die sendirik plak tuh"..

syira : "hehehe..chantek chantek.." big grin

Edit gambar sambil bace ong. guess how many percent yg terabsorbed? haiyya. please somebody help me take away this photoshop from me...worried

~ listening to paparazzi, lady gaga ~

if i'm . .

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if i'm confused
would you make me clear?

if i'm cold
would you make me warm?

if i'm lost
would you find me?

if i'm afraid
would you comfort me?

if i'm fall
would you hold me back?

if i'm blind
would you share me a path?

if i'm sad
would you sing me a song to make me happy?

if i'm . . .

little kid's potraiture

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little kids portraiture

Pictures taken during kenduri tahlil arwah toklang

kids, stay cute please..
batting  eyelashes

april is coming

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april is coming
and im stating to have a palpitation

to my dearest "favourite" subject
O to the N to the G
please be gentle to me this time
be nice to me
just for another 3 whole weeks time


9 days to go juliana


~listening to keep holding on, glee~

too afraid..

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"it doesn't matter how you start the story, what matter the most is how you end the story.."

This sentence been spinning in my head lately. i don't really remember how do i get this quote.But i do agree with this statement. Somehow, people only get excited and focused on the beginning. They tend to lose their excitement as time passing by. Either the ending might be sad or happy, the most important thing is how you end the story. Reality has to be faced. Dont ever runaway. Dont be coward. Stand for self and others. The story isn't always about yours. Your story, Your feeling, but, it always includes others. Others stories and feelings. That is why how you ended the story is so crucial.

My march wasn't so good. Moreover, April is coming sad. Can't imagine how my April would be. Afraid. Yes i am. Too afraid..sad

~listening to nota cinta, saujana ~

100 days

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17hb mac 2010 genap 100 hari pemergian arwah toklang. Al fatihah untuk arwah, moge Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas arwah.


this is her story

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When you are young your parents hold your heart, they take care of it, nurture it, feed it and love it. They are your heart’s caretaker.

But once you grow older your parents give you your heart and tell you to give it to someone you love. Someone you trust.

From that point on your heart is yours to give. You give it to someone and they stomp on it, spit on it and tear it to bits and pieces, but you kneel down to pick up the pieces and mend every back together because even though its a dirty, broken heart its still your heart.

But you cant find happiness if your heart doesn’t get shattered into a million pieces, you have to let it get mangled by others.

As time goes on and the more people you give your heart to and the more it gets broken the closer you are to finding the person who has scars that match your own.

When that time comes you give them your heart and they know how to hold it, care for it, and nurture it because they know what you’ve been through and how to be the caretaker of your heart.

Taken tsunamiblues.

Dont worry my dear friend, life is all about taking risk. Each everyone of us deserve to love and to be loved. It just a matter of time and person. Do love the right person on the right time. Though, no matter how deep your heart and love to that person, 'Jodoh' is not in our hands. We just have to lift up our hands and keep praying to Him. Believe, someday Allah will answer us.

UM hospital's road side

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the day we (mina and i) met veetha =)
though it just for a while. it really meaningful for us.
funny thing is the place where we met. guess wut? it was at the exit gate of UM hospital. And we did all the hugs, gossips, laugh and jokes at the road side!!

UM hospital's road side. Moments to be remembered.

mina in yellow and veetha in red
They are friend of mine since i was in mrsm beseri
thank god, our friendship lasted untill now
and im really hoping tat it will last forever.

till see you next time veetha =)

the story of love and life

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Something to be shared.
The story tells us about the meaning of Love and Life batting eyelashes

My husband is Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.

Two years of courtship and now, five years into marriage, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness.

I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my feelings. I yearn for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy. My husband is my complete opposite; his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about love.

One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce.

“Why? ” he asked, shocked.

“I am tired. There are no reasons for everything in the world!” I answered.

He kept silent the whole night, seemingly in deep thought. My feeling of disappointment only increased. Here was a man who was not able to even express his predicament, so what else could I expect from him?

And finally he asked me: “What can I do to change your mind?”

Somebody said it right… It’s hard to change a person’s personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him.

Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered: "Here is the question. If you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind"

"Let’s say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death. Will you do it for me?"

He said: "I will give you your answer tomorrow…. " My hopes just sank by listening to his response.

I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting underneath a milk glass, on the dining table near the front door, that goes….

"My dear, I would not pick that flower for you, but….please allow me to explain the reasons further….."

This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading.

"When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs, and you cry in front of the screen. I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs.

You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you.

You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city. I have to save my eyes to show you the way.

You always have the cramps whenever your “good friend” approaches every month. I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy.

You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom.

You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes. I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails and help to remove those annoying white hairs. So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand…and tell you the color of flowers, just like the color of the glow on your young face…

Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do… I could not pick that flower yet, and die … “

My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting. .. And as I continue on reading… “Now, that you have finished reading my answer, and if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk…"

I rushed to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread….Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower alone…

That’s LIFE, and LOVE. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness.

LOVE shows up in all forms; even in very small and cheeky forms. It has never been a model. It could be the dullest and most boring form …

Flowers, and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands… AND THAT’S LIFE.

Interesting story isn't it? Sometimes we are blind to see others sacrifices. Most of us only realize tat you love the person until she/he walks away out of your life..And it hurts when you realize all were late for you, for what you will feel your heart is torn into pieces..

So!! appreciate people around you. The one that always there for you no matter what happen ^^happy

~ listening to jump then fall, taylor swift ~

najmi name given

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"Najmi Aizuddin Mohd Azman name given"

Proudly his mother announced his name. Cant describe how happy his mother is by that time. Her facial expression tells us everything about her feeling. Nothing more important to see her little sweet baby's smile after about 40 weeks been in her uterus :)

Congratulations aunty liza on your newborn baby boy.

this little boy has remind me to my only niece, Aqeel Asyraaf . wish to meet him soon.

20 sweet kisses for me

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sweet little girls, syira and aqis happy

syira : " harini beday along ke?"

me : "ha ah..mane hadiah untuk along??"

syira : "nahh....muahhh x 10kiss "

me : "aqis taknak sayang along jugak ke?"

Aqis : "emmuahkiss..satu, uwe, ige..apan..uloh"

me : "hahaha..laughing "

so sweet..these little girls made my day. 20 kisses within 1 minute just for my 22nd birthday. i love them two, three, four, five until infinity..and not to forget, thanks mak, abah and angah for the birthday celebration. The moist chocolate cake with vanilla strawberry ice cream was really good happy

And a very special thank you to friends and family for all the wishes. May Allah surrounds us with his blesses and love winking

i love you all with all my heart happy

With Love, Along/ Juliana.

shinning bright stars

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picture taken from stregadellaombre

Many said when we miss someone try to look up bright stars scatted in the night skies. Try to find the shinning brightest one, believe in heart tat someone we miss also feel the same way. Unfortunately tonite i cant find any of one. All were gloomy gloomy stars up there. It really disappointed as i really hope and wish to see the brightest beautiful stars tonite.

Its my birthday. And happy birthday to me =)

i wish..

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i wish

you guys will gain your healthy body back

get well soon my dear. get well soon anabig hug

i wish

i will gain my spirit back

to be back to O&G posting, its not tat easy..for me sad