only i know =)

Author: ctjuliana / Labels:

The strings of my heart,
Play a slow rhythm melody,
Where you were,
I did not see,
So close to me,
but yet so veiled.

upon my invitations,
but still, somehow,
I failed to note of you.

For I had looked
so very hard for you,
up, down, everywhere.
but I just did not looked
clear, in front of me,
where you were

. . . just there

Only i know, i have to reach over you =)

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tender smile

Author: ctjuliana / Labels: , , ,


This 6th semester has comes to its end. Tomorrow is the first paper, Internal Medicine. Wahh, i never been this scared before. As i reading respiratory chapter just now, suddenly i stood up. I felt the pulses of mine beating so fast. The finger's pulses especially. Its so hard to feel end-peripheral pulses, but today i can feel it. This is so called pre-exam syndrome. Palpitation and adrenaline rush all over body!

Past 2 days i was so stressed out. Its 4 am in the morning by that time. I was trying to focus over and over. But i can't. I read the sentence over and over untill i could visualize it. but nope! its not happened. unfortunately.

As i remember, as i was to start focus on reading again. I cried. No, no im not crying. But, the tears coming out spontaneously. "its so many too read"..as i whispered those words. The tears coming out over and over. i was trying to hold them back, but my body and mind overrides the stress more that i can hold. Even i failed to suppress the urge to cry. I let it running down on my both cheeks. I called mak. Calling her at 4am in the morning really surprised her.

"buat yg terbaek setakat yang mampu, sekarang pegi ambik air sembahyang. Sembahyang hajat. Bace surah Ar-rahman.."

this is the second time she remembering me of this tips! how come i forgot of doing this. i smiled to myself. A tender smile of "kelalaian" diri.

You know wut? After doing that..its so relief! =)

All the best to me and friends. May Allah bless us. Amin =))


~ listening to hold-my hands ~

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study week..pheuuuwh ("=_=")

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Dearest Kumar and Clark,

Saya penat membaca awak.
Sudikah awak membaca saya pula?

uhhh,,pheuuuwh (''=_=")

...................................................................

Another FOUR days to go.
Its getting more stress



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moody me

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Another 8 days to come. i've been counting for the days but yet i didn't start anything. i have no mood to start it. I just finished my viva last 2 days, seeing a bundle of files to be read on make me just nauseated. Ahhh, i hate exams!! does anybody in this world love exam?? i want to noe their secret on how to love exams!!

I've got ong paper to be reseated, and i hope im not gonna to add another paper to reseat. hopefully. scary dumb dumb. Everybody busy deciding about their elective posting..and for the reseaters, they had no choice, except for doing that in forth year later. So do i. huhuhu

moody me, jules.

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jkm's last day

Author: ctjuliana / Labels: , , ,

big big thank you to our nicest jkm's doctor, Dr Rohaizat for such wonderful moments, knowledge and encouragements you've given to us.
we@jeram. Last dinner together

Last day jkm posting. everybody got their things pack-in. so do i. happy to be back to hukm. to be back home. to be back to KL. to be back to see my beloved ones. family, frens and my cutie rumet, miss ain. wahhh, rindunye semue org!

i've learn so much while i was here. everything outside the ward especially. there are so much things you have to knoe other than your ECG. More than that.

People always see public health is a common, small thing. People takes granted of it. They dont knoe, public health also plays an important role in order to make sure that our country is safe from dangerous diseases.

Long time ago, i've seen Medicine and Society subject really boring. Less important than my patology, anatomy, physiology subjects. But now, Jkm posting has opened my both eyes of it importance.

JKM posting here in Tanjong karang, was the best posting i ever had. Not to say i dont like clinical posting like surgery, medicine and obstetric and gynecology. It just tat, the surrounding is totally different. Something new to be felt after i have gone tru 3 clinical postings before. They are so tiring. really. Either clinical or public health both are fun on their own and style. Experiences that are precious for me :)

Leadership and Friendship. I've got to learn this also while i was here. Here, you can see so many personalities. Caring, loving, self-fish, hot-temper, hardworking, lazy, humble and most important is they still your friends. No matter what personality they had, you have to deal with them.

I got many things to be learn from now on :)


~ listening to sesekali diuji, nice ~

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oh my little dear

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if i could i want to rewind d time when you were in my arms. i fill hold you tightly my little little dear. i wont let you fall. i wont. Ever i wont let you fall. How worried i am, only Allah knows. you felt right in front my eyes. i was totally out of words.

"ohhh dear.." my heart whispered

i wanted rewind the time so badly. I promise to hlod you tightly. Please, i hope you are wokey. Or else, im in trouble. Guilty, me.



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she missed me

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"along balqis rindu along. Die asyik sebut name along je"

wah dis little cute girl da pandai merindu :)
listened to her voice made me crazy to back home
two days to go juliana :)

just little bit more time
and you'll be home sooon InsyaAllah
(ehee, mcm la jaoh sgt tnjong karang ni yek! hehe :D)




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ragam

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macam macam ragam manusia dlm dunie nih kan?..
sabarlah dikau wahai hati =_=


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jkm's all out

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Block B 'bestest' celebration (eat.eat. and eat) :D

sukaneka. we really enjoyed them all. thanx to shazwan for the successful events :)

owh no..mereke kenekan saye!cisss.. o_o

everybody took part, that was cool :D

sabak's volley ball team. yeah!!

go go Sabak!

Futsal, Kuale team VS Sabak team ;)

BBQ day..wat a tiring day, but still lots of fun!! :)

the day we had 'kayak' and boating :)

Next : Bukit Melawati to see monkeys..wehuuu~
these are the reasons why i enjoy my JKM's posting :)

yay!! mak dtg esok..
h a p p y n y e r
:))))))))

tak sabar rasenyer =)


~ listening to wondergirls, nobody ~




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its my baby!!

Author: ctjuliana / Labels: ,

ohhh baby, i love you!
seriously

time kaseh abang for dis D60
you made my dream comes true :)

i just addicted to you my baby :)


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