..Life is like a boat..

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Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

Far away,
I'm breathing,
as if I were transparent
It would seem I was in the dark,
but I was only blindfolded

I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong

People's hearts change and sneak away from them
The moon in its new cycle leads the boats again

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

And still the journey continues on quiet days as well
The moon in its new cycle shines on the boats again

I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

We are rowing the boat of fate,
but the waves keep attacking us
But isn't that still a wonderful journey?
Aren't any of them a wonderful journey?



yang belum dengar lagu nieh..
try to hear dis song...
nice song ^_^
layan...

Rie Fu
- Life is like a boat =))

..truly madly deeply..

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I felt a peace descend upon my heart... Smiley Faces

h0miey!!..

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you set me free..
with your tender care and deep warm hugs..


you always there whenever i need you..
time kaseh mak..

Smiley Faces

i need you^^

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I need you

Please take me by the hand

Stand by me in my hour of need

Take time to understand


Take my hand

And lead me from this place

Chase away my doubts and fears

Wipe the tears from off my face


I cannot stand alone

I need your hand to hold

The warmth of your gentle touch

In my world that's grown so cold


Please be a friend to me

And hold me day by day

Because with your loving hand in mine

I know we'll find the way

-By Becky Tucker




i need you..
need going back home..

aaLaaa..!!

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"ahaaa..hus is dis??"

hellow "diary"..Smiley Faces
i just came back from labour room..
it supposed to end at 7 am..but...
takde patient lorr..
hmmm..btollah kate doctor..
skrg ni bkn musim org berrproduktif.,,hehe..

aku ngan husna be at labour room lps maghrib..
by det time der are 3 patients..2 with 9cm cervix dilatation..
and another one is 3 cm dilated..
waiting punye waiting...
only 1 patient delivered normally..
n another two has to go to operation theatre..
FRUST nye...da tunggu nak conduct..
tp malangnye...Smiley Faces

"xpela..xley conduct, tgk caesaer pon jadilahh"

kitorg pon tgk la caesaer!! in d OT dey do vacuum delivery!!
but yet,,it was very difficult delivery..
poor maternal effort + Hypertension (systolic pressure rised till 188!!)..
lagipon..it was primigravida (first pregnancy)..
Atlast, vacuum delivery was failed..
n they proceed with lower segment caesaerian section..

Delivery kali ni sgt la difficult..
sekali tgk..mcm trauma je nk bersalin!! Smiley Faces
da la kne caesaer plus episiotomy lagi tuh..
Tp it worth to see the baby in a good condition eventhough der is little lacerations on his head..

Compare to caesaer..i do love to see normal delivery..
its more dramatic!!!ehehe...
Everybody puts some moral support to the mother..
especially the husband..
but, ade jugak certain2 husband yg takot tgk wife dorg bersalin..
so they prefer to wait outside..huhu..x best ar mcm tuh!! apelaaa..
bile lg nk tgk LIVE kan!!Smiley Faces

huhu..by 12 am der is no patient..
except for one private patient from ward khas..
ofcos la medical students not allowed to "kacau" them..
private kan..

So, we lepak2 kat meje midwives..
and had some enjoy + best discussion with green ward registra..DR. PRAVIN..
and yellow ward houseman..DR.FATIH..
Smiley Faces
Such a nice doctors..they not "lokek" to give some ilmu and share their experiences!!
furthermore, they are UKM's graduates..
so, lagi la bnyk cerite yg dorg cite..
Smiley Faces

Esok....
ade grand ward round for my team ward..
tp luckily, der is no patient for me!!!!
I wish..der still no patient untill 8 am tomorrow!!!
So det i dont need to present my case to
prof Hatta and d geng..haha..
Smiley Faces

okey done for now..
jom tido!! =))
Smiley FacesSmiley Faces


~listening to 'bitter heart' by zee avi~

i'm in...

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Today,
After grand ward round, which lasted for almost 3 hours..
I changed my mind..

I was lucky..
lucky to be placed in Green team for Obstetric and Gynaecology posting...

Its true,
the doctors and professors there are little bit "garang"..
but..
they are the people that teach you the most..
you'll learn so many things from them..

Its true,
they'll scold u..they'll humiliate you in front of others..
but..
they are the people that care so much towards you..
they spend their busy and precious time to listen to your terrible presentations..
To correct you from wrong to right..

Its true,
they'll scared you..they fear you..
they'll put a lot of stress in you..
but..
they are the people that stimulate you to work harder..harder and harder..
To make you a better person..a competent doctor!!

They are among the good teachers!! but of cos, in a different ways and thoughts...

" when you are in white coat..everything is white to you"...Prof Hatta


Happy to correct my statement before..
"Green Team is the best ward to LEARN"..


Honestly, I started to admire Prof Hatta and Prof Shuhaila..=)

..my heart sicks..

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i miss you..
i miss home..
i miss mak and abah..
i miss my adek..

hmmm...i miss them all...=(
After 1 year stay kat rumah..
Terasa Asrama kat sini mcm penjara la plak!!
naseb bek ade housemate best..
naseb bek Encik Amza bawak kerete..
hehe..ley enjoy2 d mlm hari ketika Cortisol level tgh memuncak!!

~ There are Five of us..Me, Ain, Hus, Amzar, Assila...LOVE u guys!! ~


i miss my aunty..
hope aunty doing fine..
with d two craziest sons she had..
Zul Aiman n Zul Aidil..
Sorry aunty, kdg2 x smpat nk pick up ur call..
promise u, once i hve my "cuti"..
Rite Away i spend my time with you.. (^_-)

p/s : man n aidil..do take care of mummy!!



Now,
im happy,
O&G..its not that bad..
Just..you have to be prepared before "angin puting beliung" datang mnyerang..
hehe...

"Dr. boleh tlg saya x?"
yuhuuu...rasa mcm dah jadi Doctor..=DD


~ Listening to "so small", Matt G ~


..G ! A N..

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~Release tension~

Puas bace buku arini..
lme sgt tak sentuh photoshop..
sekali buat..2 3 jam..gian!!hehe...
credit tuh nuezz..thnx beb!!


~in D mood of "no boundaries"..by Kris Allen..
~

my 1st day..

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"it is better for u to LEAVE dis field if
you cannot cope to it"


Pity me..
I was belong to
GREEN TEAM..
Which i.....

my first day posting..
but yet,
i didn't feel it is interesting..

my first day posting,
and i really don't noe how to describe the O&G department in a right manner..
though i have learned Personnel and Professional Development..

Too bad for my first day posting..
So i think better get ready for d terrible, horrible things to happen next..

EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED..

"SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO BE HUMILIATED AND SCOLDED TO LEARN"

Jangan tertipu,
Not really SOMETIMES i think..
ITs rather to be ALWAYS..



~ Listening to Hating On d CLUB (O&G)..Rihanna~

kec0t per0t..

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Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want
But how long can you wait
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you've lost your way

What if my chances were already gone
I started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit you stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don't know where the future's headed
Nothing's gonna bring me down
Jumped every bridge I've run every line
I risk being safe, I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
No boundaries
Yeah, there are no boundaries


"You'll make it through the pain Juliana..."

~A song from No boundaries by Kris Allen~


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Hari ni First day masok posting..
konon2 bangun awal la nieh..hehe..
tp mmg terjage and troz tak bley tido..

cuak . nervous . takot . kecot perot

hope everything is going to be fine..
Lucky me if i were placed under Orange Team Supervisor..
Do pray for me ya!! =))

A song "no boundaries"..
sangat suke lirik lagu nieh..
kene pada mood aku yang baru nak layan posting O&G..
try to hear it..such a beautiful song..
makes u more spiritfull . motivated . Layan ~

"Bcos...You'll make it through the pain Juliana..."

Selfmotivated siket Di pagi hari nieh..
=))