i always knew looking back
on the tears would make me laugh.
but i never knew looking back
on the laugh would make me cry.
huhu..
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looking back
Author: ctjuliana / Labels: i am me..i always knew looking back
on the tears would make me laugh.
but i never knew looking back
on the laugh would make me cry.
huhu..
tanya sama pokok
Author: ctjuliana /
Tersesat malu bertanya
Tak tahu tak tahu ke mana
Terlalu banyak alasannya
Ku terdiam
Menyusur di kaki lima
Terlihat bayang wajah kelmarin
Tersentuh hati bagai luruh
Tanya sama pokok apa sebab goyang
Jawab angin yang goncang
Terbang burung terbang
Patah sayap diduga
Seandainya rebah
Kau masih ada
Terlalu mahu dan mahu
Terlupa apa yang perlu
Terlalu banyak alasannya
Duduk terdiam
Tak mudah namun tak susah
Terserah atas pilihan
Tersentuh hati mula luruh
Tanya sama pokok apa sebab goyang
Jawab angin yang goncang
Terbang burung terbang
Patah sayap diduga
Seandainya rebah
Kau masih ada
Jawab angin yang goncang
Terbang burung terbang
Patah sayap diduga
Seandainya rebah
Kau masih ada
Terlalu mahu dan mahu
Terlupa apa yang perlu
Terlalu banyak alasannya
Duduk terdiam
Tak mudah namun tak susah
Terserah atas pilihan
Tersentuh hati mula luruh
Tanya sama pokok
~ listening to pokok, meet uncle hussain feat hazama ~
nice song
love letter
Author: ctjuliana / Labels: i am me..Have you ever write a letter to someone before
? to someone who you know will appreciate the surprise. to spill your thoughts and feelings out
. It may seem like a waste of time isn't it? but you’ll get to feel the absolute relaxing, inspiring feeling and touched while writing.Letter writing is something which has forgotten nowadays right? which we use to call or message people, or access the internet to email one another, connect with each other via social networking websites esp facebook! Well such ways are easy at times, it doesn’t hurt to sit down and put pen to paper to write by hand. but it is significantly enjoyable if you write a letter to someone who you love, or who means a lot to you. if tat someone got a very pure heart, he/she will appreciate tat more than anything. it begins with surprisingly curious as he/she open that envelope, turning the pages, and ingesting each and every word as your eyes scan over your lover’s handwriting.
Isn't that sweet? weee~
Since i enter paediatrics posting, i get to know that every developmental milestones of your baby is very important. It really precious to see you baby as small as your palm getting bigger and grower!
I got the chance to see this one nice young mother, who had her own love letters compilation (like dairy book. chantek sgt!) regarding her baby..im so touched to see it! every chapter sweetly written by her. she begun the love letter to her baby by describing how happy she was by the time she knew she got pregnant, and she still write every single happy n sad moments until now! hoooh, chomeylnye! i'll make sure i also have one in the future!
so future2 mother in the world, lets start writing love letter to your baby!! hehe
" Writing a letter, its just you, the paper, the pen, and your thoughts. "
turner's syndrome
Author: ctjuliana / Labels: medicineyuhuuu~ hectic week before entitle as PRHO (pre registered house officer) kononnye. tp seriously penat gile gile gile punye. cuak tak yah cakap lah kan. setiap kali ward round jantung ni rase berdegup x tentu arah jadinye. ape mau buat? bersusah susah dahulu, bersenang kemudian loh. kene marah puas2 dulu, tapi nnti mase dah keje pon kne marah gak. hurmm. wah, dis week i learn so many things in the ward, the best is second time tengok turner syndrome patient (Dahla patient ni mengaku selalu kene panggil untuk professional exam, so lagi la semangat ingat muke patient nih) hehe.
so revising myself, turner syndrome punye clinical features:
- webbed neck
- micrognathia
- low set ear
- low hair line
- shield shape chest
- wide spread nipple
- turned in elbow (cubitus valgus)
- frog like fingers
- spoon shape nail
- edema of the extrimities
- v shape waist to hip
- short stature (penting!!)
- delay puberty
patient tu siap aja format exam lagi tuh!
so firstly, when examiner ask "what information you need to know about the patient?"
so, the appropriate answer is "the age of the patient"
from that information and thorough inspection we can guess so many differential. huhu.
next, examiner ask to do general examination and describe.
so, startlah buat general examination! watch out for every signs of dysmorphic features. Open our eyes widely!!
after examine, present nicely in a systematic way! from head to toe!
after that, examiner will ask about provisional diagnosis. Stay alert and concious, relate all the features together. make a relavant decision
the next question would be" what you expect the problems that patient might have?"
- heart problem (mostly coarctation of aorta)
- retarded growth
- poor breast and ovaries development
- ammenorhea
- infertile
- learning difficulties
Next, " if you a medical officer what would you plan for her?"
- surgery (congenital heart disease)
- growth hormone
- hormone replacement therapy
okeyh, tamat dah!
so revising myself, turner syndrome punye clinical features:
- webbed neck
- micrognathia
- low set ear
- low hair line
- shield shape chest
- wide spread nipple
- turned in elbow (cubitus valgus)
- frog like fingers
- spoon shape nail
- edema of the extrimities
- v shape waist to hip
- short stature (penting!!)
- delay puberty
patient tu siap aja format exam lagi tuh!
so firstly, when examiner ask "what information you need to know about the patient?"
so, the appropriate answer is "the age of the patient"
from that information and thorough inspection we can guess so many differential. huhu.
next, examiner ask to do general examination and describe.
so, startlah buat general examination! watch out for every signs of dysmorphic features. Open our eyes widely!!
after examine, present nicely in a systematic way! from head to toe!
after that, examiner will ask about provisional diagnosis. Stay alert and concious, relate all the features together. make a relavant decision
the next question would be" what you expect the problems that patient might have?"
- heart problem (mostly coarctation of aorta)
- retarded growth
- poor breast and ovaries development
- ammenorhea
- infertile
- learning difficulties
Next, " if you a medical officer what would you plan for her?"
- surgery (congenital heart disease)
- growth hormone
- hormone replacement therapy
okeyh, tamat dah!
time and date
Author: ctjuliana / Labels: i am me..when he doesn't give you a time
then you don't have a date
cry isn't bad
Author: ctjuliana / Labels: i am me..Cry isn't bad.
Cry doesn't show that you are week.
Sometimes we hate the feeling when we know we're going to cry. Our lips quiver. Our heart pounds. Our face clenches up. Our eyes sting. And the tears start to fall. We cant stop them no matter how hard we try. The harder is, it's not little tears that slide down our cheek, but it's big tears that make our eyes red and puffy. Our face ugly with tear stained and our body heave. As we lie on the bed, the more we cant stop the tears from falling. But theres nothing you can do, nothing anyone can say. It's the kind of tears and pain that need to be cried out. Not talked out. Sometimes you just dont care. All you think of is what could you have possibly done to stop the pain. To stop what you're going through..Cry cry and cry. That is the thing that your heart really need to do. To release all the pain. Let it be let it be..
Believe me i know how you feel.
When hE puts hIs Jacket arOund me
my Heart bEating sO faSt
When he sIngs the sOng I love to hEar
the Air sEems nOt enough fOr me to bReath
When he wHispers sOmething sWeet
mY earDrum trEmble
When he sIts clOse tO me
my tUmmy filled with buttErflies
When he fEd me hIs mEal
my Eyes shIne a sTars
and I've been secretly melting for you
